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so whats up every one hows your spring brake post in here on what u did on your spring brake i wanrt to see because i just sat around and did nouthing ofcurse missed SOME ONE VEARY MUCH hope all of you are haveing a good time
sory i ant been online i am no longer at home so cant get on a pc all the time if u need to get a hold of me ryan knows how ttyl cya round |
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Feb. 13th, 2005 @ 10:06 am
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happy anniversary my best frind |
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ok so whats new work sucks my boss who used to be like my 2ent morther is comeing down on me really hard and trying to fire i think its because of my morther and shes also the one that dose scedreling so im geting reall shity shifts even when i request a early day i get late so sory but i wontr be at the show vday i work till 10 but off on friday i just hope pepole r going that i know whic would mean i have good look lol ya right i get to go to work tonight sucky shit and then im hopeing im going to a party finealy its been so fucking long not really but it feelas like it and then my baby leavs towmer and i get to soalk for a week j/k il try not to :')> well have a good weekend and v day pepoles who cen have fun
random but i like it
No Stars for Her
The menorah lay on the kitchen counter, glistening in the empty room. I lean over, my head close to the light of the flames. It is the eighth night. My hands cover my face, and a film of tears shields my eyes. The heat of the candles quickly evaporates the saltwater dripping like wax from my eyes.
In the background, the Christmas lights glow. An immaculate tree stands tall and proud in another room. The heat increases, prickling my soft skin. Still, I do not move. When I feel a burning sensation in my left hand, I immediately know what it is. My golden wedding band is rapidly absorbing the fire's heat and scalding my ring finger. I remove it and place it on the countertop. Squinting through the liquid fog, I pick it up again and carefully hold it between my thumb and pointer finger. I read the inscription; curly-Q's of gold declare, "Forever, My Love."
With this ring of promise, I had crossed the line. I went to the other side-another religion. And then I remembered the visceral pain in my gut. The hole that was carved from my insides left my womb empty and left me with a permanent chasm in my heart. I had crossed the line yet again.
My lips try their hardest to utter the prayer I once knew as a child. I can visualize the Hebrew lettering in my mind, but nothing in me knows how to speak or read it. I let my face get closer to the trembling flames and cry some more. The heat is soothing. I had crossed the line so many times, and in the process of losing my faith, I also lost myself
peacCurrent Mood:  confusen Current Music: "mr lonely" akon |
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I GOT MY BOO BOO BACK I KNEW IT WOULD HAPEN BUT IM SO GLAD IT WAS SONER THEN LATER I NEVER HAVE AND NEVER WILL LOSE FAITH IN HEATHER BECAUSE SHES THE ONE FOR ME AND I WILL NEVER STOP LOVEING HER BECAUSE ITS NOT POSABLE I CANT WAIT TOP C YOU AGAIN BOO BOO I GOT TO C U AGAIN BEFOR YOU LEAV FOR FLORDA WELL BYE BYE GOPT TO DO A FINALE YAY LOL BYE HEATHER I LOVE YOU AND MY HART IS FOREVER YOURS AND I MISS U AND LIL MOEY AND SILLY HOLLY AND GOOD COOKEN MIS DEB :) AND SWEET DADYO AND TENA AND PAT AND BERN ETC ETC ETC........................................
HAVE FUN IN FLORDA AND CALL ME EVERY MORNEN AND NIGHT PA PA PA PA
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PLEAAS.......................!!!!!!!
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hey baby i love you and i miss u and i cant wait to c u again hope you injoyed the dance i know i did its a night ill rember for the rest of my life no mater how long or short it happens to be that was one of the best nights of my life only surpased by veary few other days/nights toghter whit you have a good day babyCurrent Mood:  tummy hurts Current Music: mr lonely by akon |
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thanks ryan ed chris chris sarah chelsy for hanging out whit me the other night
thanks heather for the perfect night last night that was the one night i will never forget im sory its are last night even if its only for now
cya round pepoles
Feb. 6th, 2005 @ 10:24 am
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dear god i am sory for makeing you cry and for disapointing you but it is what i have to do i cant go on whit the hurt and i cant continu to hurt others i dont not wish for you to cry i pray for it i hope im worth it to some one for just one person to cry even if its some one crying though the lords eyes pleas give me thous tears pleas build me that stair way i need to heavan because your tearz is my only ticket and im sory but life is how it is and it is something that surpasses me and is readty to pass me by so good bye thank you andf i pray u will never forget me but if that day comes look at are son and say these simple words calaph kyle clark your the smile in my day the shing star in my life my good meries and bad your my rezon to live you are my lfe
HEATHER I LOVE YOU PLEAS DONT EVER FORGET ONE OF R GOOD TIMES THANK YOU BABY
Feb. 4th, 2005 @ 10:18 pm
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i miss u baby cant wait to see u saturday yay i get to see my boo boo. man my fucken pc is down but at least i was able to slap a peac of shit one thoghetr whit ectrah parts i get a new case and myu pc fucks up thaT FIGERS AND THE WORST PARTY IS EVERY PART WORJS BUT JUST WONT WORK TOGHTER So i have no idea what i need to fix it grr time to just rebuild i think this is gonna suck i might not have a pc for awhile so might be my last post in forever peac sory i hit cap lock for a lil lol
love and miss u boo boo i.e. heather i.e. leakey but
Feb. 1st, 2005 @ 09:54 pm
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You Are 21 Years Old |
21
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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Jan. 29th, 2005 @ 11:40 am
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My penis's new name is Quentin the Intimidating Weapon of Mass Destruction.
Take Name Your Penis by badasstronaut. today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.
Jan. 28th, 2005 @ 07:05 pm
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I Believe In a Thing Called Love by The Darkness |
"I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour, every day
You got me in a spin but everythin' is A.OK!"
You played it cheesy and campy in 2004, but you know how to rock out.
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Jan. 28th, 2005 @ 01:25 pm
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the thing i hate the most next to a lie would be a secret but one day all the secrets come out but how cen one person hold in the secret of there past and it not even matter that only one person in the present know of there past i geus ud have to love that person so much to let them know and only them in a sence i cen relate but in order to be able to hold that as a secret and not even want to tell people is that a past youd like to go back to or stay away from or both or nether and what if both idk i know im stupid and random but its not like any ones gonna read what i got to say any wase besides for my baby I LOVE YOU BOO BOO
so to wrap it up all in all it was a good day i got to talk to my baby ;) and i punched a few dents in my P.O.S. car that still dont FUCKING RUN thanks dale and chilled whit ryan for a lil bit and then watched boyz n the hood good movie its a classic the best movie about "young black people" the sencer was for you heather lol shooting/getting shoot and growing up to be a good contributing member of society
Jan. 27th, 2005 @ 10:16 pm
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GOD FUCKEN GOREREREREEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR DA GA GA GERRRRR DAMN BAD DAY LOL AND TOWMER I GET TO STAY HOME AND BE BORED BECAUSE ITS MY DAY OFF AND BECAUSE NOONE WANTS TO HANG OUT YAY LOL WELL IF YOU WANNA DO SOMETHING CALL OR TEXT ME I GEUS PEAC OUT
Jan. 26th, 2005 @ 08:15 pm
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well today sucked ass had to get carts all day clean the top of the dariy cooler at work it was nasty and one of the old timers there says man that thing hasent been ckleaned in 7 no wait 8 or 9 years and i was ther last one to do it omg gros at least an inch of dust so in other words bad day at home at work and allaround besides for the fact i got to talk to my baby boo of corse well peac out
Jan. 25th, 2005 @ 04:31 pm
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oh yay i get to go to wrok after being bitched oput for shit my uncel did this is bull shit u cen tell who ant comeing home tonight peac out
Jan. 25th, 2005 @ 06:23 am
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i allready knew all of that
Jan. 23rd, 2005 @ 08:38 pm
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dose it describe me good? lol
Jan. 23rd, 2005 @ 08:31 pm
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01. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
02. Am I loveable?
03. How long have you known me?
04. When and how did we first meet?
05. What was your first impression?
06. Do you still think that way about me now?
07. What do you think my weakness is?
08. Do you think I'll get married?
09. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
heather you berter do this *kiss*
Jan. 23rd, 2005 @ 08:04 pm
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